Bad Judgement, or ...?

Again, when I want to do things right, it ended by making me feel like an idiot. And that action may -- or may not, I haven't found out yet -- cost us a few millions.

You see, because I just ask to the representative of the owner about a detail that our own supplier emphasized at not having it on their finished product, I got a short reply with a sharp tone like "Can't you even read?"

Crap.

My boss even asked me why did I even mention the difference because then we'd have to comply over that minor detail -- not to mention the implication of switching supplier and additional cost.

I should have follow my first idea about NOT TO ASK ANYTHING about that EFF-ING MINOR DETAIL!!!!

Right now I just felt like crawling under my desk and wait for the doomsday to come.

How could I be better at judging things?

Menunda-nunda Pekerjaan Itu Adalah KESALAHAN

Akhirnya aku kena batunya.

Seharusnya pagi ini aku mengirimkan e-mail penjelasan ke owner tentang alasan keterlambatan pengiriman penawaran pekerjaan untuk proyek kami di kepulauan Riau. Aku sudah mengingatkan diriku sendiri soal ini bahkan dari dua hari yang lalu. Tapi seperti kebiasaan (buruk)-ku selama ini, aku menunda-nunda mengirimkan e-mail itu.

Padahal konsepnya sudah ada di kepala dan hanya butuh lima menit untuk compose dan kirim e-mail itu.

But NO! Dengan bodohnya aku menunda sehingga tadi baru saja aku ditelepon oleh koordinator si pemilik menelepon menanyakan penawaran. Tentu saja aku berusaha memberikan penjelasan yang kredibel dan meyakinkan -- tapi karena suaraku yang mungkin kurang impresif sehingga semuanya kedengaran (setidaknya menurutku) seperti "pepesan kosong".

Terdengar sekali kekecewaan dari suara si koordinator itu sehingga aku langsung merasa sangat bersalah -- pada perusahaan. Entah bagaimana menjelaskan dengan meyakinkan karena si koordinator sudah menunggu selama empat hari kerja (termasuk hari ini).

Kelihatannya aku belum juga berubah. Satu sifat yang ini entah kenapa sangat susah diubah. Aku harusnya lebih disiplin dan memberikan komitmen terbaik pada pekerjaan.

Ingat woi! Ini sudah hari kelima belas di tahun 2009!

Kembali Ke Awal Lagi!

Mungkin akan menarik untuk kembali ke dasar: Nikon D50 + lens kit AF-S 18-55mm 1:3.5-5.6G ED DX dan bila aku butuh tele maka aku membawa lensa kedua yang aku beli: Nikon AF 70-300mm 1:4-5.6G (cheapest Nikon tele zoom full frame lens!)

Kenapa begitu?

Sebenarnya aku jenuh dengan ke mana-mana membawa Sigma 24-70mm 1:2.8 aku yang jauh lebih berat daripada lens kit itu. Aku juga ingin memberikan tantangan baru pada diri sendiri: dengan lensa kit + lensa murah juga bisa mendapatkan hasil yang memuaskan, seperti yang kualami dalam dua tahun pertamaku "menggotong" DSLR.

Jadi yang kulakukan sekarang adalah mengambil lagi tas kamera Lowepro-ku (yang sayangnya tidak All-Weather itu), mengatur ulang susunan padding-nya, lalu memasukkan lensa tele zoomku (serial number 9201312), ditambah bodi Nikon D50 (serial number 8034160) dengan lensa kit 18-55mm (serial number 2296324) terpasang!

Biarlah Sigma-ku, Nikon 50mm 1:1.4 AI-s, dan Nikon AF 80-200mm 1:2.8 D tersimpan dalam dry-box ecek-ecek di bawah meja itu.  Aku ingin mencoba kembali ke awal lagi!

Full Moon In The Night

full moon in the night
apa yang telah membuatku menangis
full moon in the night
mungkin hanya kau yang bisa mengerti
full moon in the night
banyakkah duka harus kujalani



full moon in the night
sampai sepi kan hancurkan hatiku
kuingin dengannya, tapi ku tak mampu
dia tak tau, takkan pernah tau
full moon in the night
bahagiakanku didekap sinarmu


-- Aiu, Full Moon In The Night, Garasi II

Let Me Quote You: Lonely Planet's Travel Photography

quote from Richard I'Anson's book:

The ability to interchange lenses is one of the most persuasive reasons for buying an SLR. It increases your creative options and ability to solve photographic problems. DOn't compromise on lens quality. If you're on a tight budget, go for a camera with fewer features and buy the best lenses you can afford. Lens quality determines image sharpness, colour and the light-gathering capacity of the lens, which can determine how you shoot in various lighting conditions.

Sucker for Barbarianism

You see, some childhood readings could stick to you in ways that even stick to your adulthood.

That's what I felt right now as I waited for my turn to download Conan comics from some link in Rapidshare. Because I was not into paying the service, it asked me to wait (and wait again) each time I want to download the series that was originally published by Marvel Comics -- well, someone scanned all this pages and then uploaded them.

Actually, Conan the Barbarian is a character in books. And I know that this might be constituted as illegal. But then, educate me. Please!

I'm a sucker for all things Conan (the Barbarian). That's why I felt envious when the game Age of Conan released. I want to play it. Even if the game not quite live to the expectation.

And what about the next Conan movie? You just have to find another one to fill for Conan. The Governator Arnold S. is just not fit into the role anymore.

(continued...)

Another Workday

Today is the first workday on 2009. Already I think of getting myself a vacation. Travel to some destination. Doing photography and finishing some books kept in shelves and boxes -- waiting for me to take them to the light and fresh air.

Surely, this year started with some slow business but I really hope that things will catching up later.

Now I haven't done some serious hunting in these past weeks, no wonder I got this curiousity itchiness inside me. But then again, everytime I went back to my rentroom, either I'd watch the telly or I just went on sleeping.

I should work out. My belly's getting in my way of wearing my pants.

Har har...

Wolverine, Anyone?

I don't know if this movie will be of any good.
But I definitely will watch it!



I just hope that I won't be dissapointed the way I watch The Last Stand.