My Brain Stops Working

Here I am alone at the office staring at the LCD and the piles of documents, feeling more desperate for each minutes passed.

All because of my brain refuse to do any work. It even feels really heavy inside my cranium. Oh God.

I sucks for letting myself at this position.

Joyless Times (Part 4 of Many)

God will only save me through my own efforts.

Maybe I'm Being Ungrateful (Joyless Times Part 3 of Many)

The way you could see it is that I am being selfish and ungrateful.

When I have a friend to whom I can confide my personal problems, how could I called other people -- the lonelier ones -- as more fortunate than myself?

Joyless Times (Part 2 of Many)

Life Will Take You Nowhere

If You Do Not Go Anywhere

Joyless Times (Part 1 of Many)

It saddens me that i hurt you no matter what i do.

Sad and depressed.

Even worse, my daily life sucks because i work on a place where i felt stuck.

You know why i don't change work?

Because a change of work will take me farther away from you.

Because i am competent at nothing and you know it as well as i do.

to remember

i still haven't found what i'm looking for: a quiet place, a shelter from the storm.

Worried Sick

I am worried sick about my own job, my own career, and my own future.

Is there nothing that I can do?

C'mon, I am not that stupid as to give up without trying to do anything..?

I will do something about this, because I (see below)