Would You Say "Thank You"?

And while sitting here staring at nothingness, would you want to say "Thank You" for all the pain?

How Do I

How do I can feel more alive?

How to make me able to enjoy my life the fullest?

How can I be grateful for what I have now?

What could I do to be more positive, outwardly person?

What kind of training is there to achieve what I want and need to be better?

I know I need help. I just do not know where to get one.

Please help.