Day 285: Discipline And Focus

That's two of the most important things for character integrity -- or so I think.

Even with a commitment, being discipline and stay in focus take up a lot of energy and can be surprisingly tough thing to do. As with my initial intention on keeping a 5-day blog post which by the time you're reading this you must be able to guess that I am failing miserably.

My ideal thing with this blog is that I will write an update at the minimum of one for every five days passed since first of January, 2009. I even loosely limited the topic on anything that might be interesting to me -- since that time I thought on just focusing on one theme only and post anything related to it every five days might be an untenable task (please consider to look up on dictionary if "untenable" is an appropriate word -- atmr).

But that turned out to be a folly. Without focusing on a certain theme and keeping it on schedule (the fifth-day regular update), I can easily lost focus and not making any update AT ALL. Don't try to tell me about that fault because I am already felt like a failure at this and my self-esteem is hurting like a... I don't know. What'd be a word to describe it?

Again and again I am reminded but as always I am easily distracted and that cause me to unable to attend to my own schedule, the one I set for myself. Maybe I should do this differently from now on, like making a more specific description on my topic for that five-day regular and maybe sometimes make it a special!

Blah blah.. I am only so full of ideas!

:(