Today I Feel Tired

"and i love every single tears you cry...
... oh my baby, how beautiful you are..."

and Valo's singing didn't even make the day brighter!

It's was like I'm mentally exhausted and all I wanted to do is go out there and do what I really longed to do: take pictures. For these couple of months, I passed a lot of photographing opportunities and not all of them because I had to work on crazy schedules. Some because I had made certain arrangements; dates; or fallen sick. The only opportunities that I went and took pictures are when I went site visiting, thus all the pictures I acquired are of work projects.

"...in six hundred and sixty six ways...
I'm here for you."

Damn how I missed so much the adventures I get by travelling around. Maybe this is the main reason I took the chance of "being exiled" to Borneo straight out of university. The adventure. I even didn't ask any friends about their opinions or thoughts. Back then, my only (fatalist) thought is that, "Hey, everybody died one way or another. So why bother? In Bandung or in Borneo, death is still death." And the other one is, "People lived there for generations, why couldn't I?"

"...the journey seemed endless,
the Shadow will rising..."

That's why I'd jumped for most of the opportunity that went my way of leaving this desk and this computer. I'd rather travel and see things and have new experience to blog about later on. If none of that happened, I'd be stuck here writing this type of blog post you are reading right now. And I'd be whining and made myself looked lame.

Man, I'm tired. Physically and mentally.

"...Death blessed me with You.
Will You die tonight for Love?
...Cause this Life ain't worth living!"

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lyrics from Gone With The Sin, and For You, and The Path, and Join Me In Death by HIM.